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Shattered

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I know now that even a cold blade digging into my wrist could not hurt me as much as that single word that day. The day he said goodbye…



The day was bright and the conversation pleasant. My heart soared at his presence and I threw my arms happily around his neck. I kissed him softly and playfully, smiling as he nuzzled me softly and returned my affection. At once I felt the pain in his kiss as he pulled away and told me we must say goodbye.



My heart sank as I pleaded with him. I searched for answers in his eyes, though he could not look at me.  For words that would not, could not, come to his lips. Did I not care enough? Did I fail him?



He smiled sadly, fear, confusion pouring forth from him. Did he not know that love comes in many forms? Could he not see that I only wanted happiness for him? I hope for nothing more than to make him smile.



I turned from him as my tears came, liquid pieces of my shattering heart, falling down a face that was numb. He pulled me close and held me, whispering soft. Do not cry darling, Please, I cannot stand your tears. Kissing me softly I could only cry more as with each second I could feel my heart slipping away into oblivion.



And though the words should comfort me, my heart shattered completely for as he says he cannot love me, in his final words there was such love as I had ever known, crushing my already fractured heart into a million fragments.



His eyes shed no tears. His smile dark as he tried to be strong, for whom I did not know. Did he know I thought he did not care? Wondered if he hurt, or felt, or if my tears mattered to him? He held my face in his hands and whispered softly words I did not want to hear. He kissed me one last time, tenderly, deeply. And as I cried, he held me tightly and whispered goodbye into my ear, kissed my cheek, and turned and walked away…
I wrote this in a moment of profound sadness. I had felt it very personal and was asked to not post it. However, I no longer feel obligated to keep it to myself. I will still however honor the person who asked me to not share it by not explaining who they are or what this is about. A girl, no matter how angry or hurt, has her limits after all :)

So, here you are. I hope you enjoy it.
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